There are moments I wish the ground would swallow me whole, tonight was such.
I thought having to spend the rest of your life explaining to someone the way you were would suck, but what sucks more is having to explain and them not understanding at all.
You just sit there feeling silly and hurt yet unable to move because you’re crippled by your own demons.
It’s a different kind of heartbreak, having to muffle your cries because you don’t want to wake them up, when they were fine going to bed, when you needed them.
Deafening silence, all too familiar horror.
How did I end up here?
She Was Sea 
On a post I recently came across, it said that; a long lasting relationship comes with a lot of forgiveness and understanding. You have to accept the fact that your partner would not be perfect, and be open to the very real possibility that they will hurt you, disappoint you, and even upset you at some point.
Not sure that helps, but hope that it helped somewhat.
Praying that March is kinder to you.
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It is true. You don’t stay together because you forget, but because you forgive. And when you love them beyond all their flaws, you can easily forgive them. But asking for forgiveness also means I’m sorry I hurt you, I wouldn’t do that again. Instead it’s usually, I’m sorry I hurt you, it’ll probably happen again. Hence, forgiveness becomes destructive. That’s where boundaries must be drawn.
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