I just need someone to tell me that it’s going to be okay, and mean it. I need someone to reassure me and tell me this isn’t all it’ll ever be and this isn’t all that I’ll ever be. But I’m all alone, with no one who even remotely understands how difficult this is for me. Words don’t do justice to the remoteness I’m feeling. I guess I miss security. I miss being safe. When the music stops, you’re all you have. And that’s so terrifying, and it’s exhausting carrying yourself on your back when you feel so out of your own body. Moving through the winds trying to find my place to call home. I know I’ve done this on my own for so long, but right now it feels too much. I’m tired of taking care of myself. Right now I feel like a commitment I can’t seem to get rid of.
But that being said, I’m still not giving up. Maybe I’m not even close to. Because even when it feels impossible, I get out of bed and do what I have to do, even though none of it is for me. I used to think by now the devil would have no more cards to play, but oh it does. The hand is dealt and I’m going to have to bluff my way through this round, hoping this is the last time I will have to move mountains. Life is a series of falling, getting back up, and then falling even lower. And here is where it feels like I just can’t do this anymore. But I remind myself that I have to. I keep hurting myself with the expectations I have set for myself, and when things fall apart it feels like the lowest point of life all over again. If I could graph it out I’d say the older you are the harder you fall with life’s inconveniences. The bouncing back process is a hundred times harder than it used to be. As we live in this economy, trying to make ends meet, you realise how eerie the whole tunnel is. I’m going to stop torturing myself with the expectations, convince myself that it’s okay to win a little late if it means your survival is at stake.I just hope I’m a slingshot that’s pulling back right now. And it’s not always going to be this way.
Its truly sad, that we live in a time where people use other people. The most beautiful of souls and the kind hearted are the ones that suffer the most at the hands of others.
Remember these verses.
“For indeed, with hardship will be ease”
(Quran 94:5)
“Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear”
(Quran 2:286)
Its the worst kind of loneliness. The kind where even when you are surrounded by people, friends or family you still feel lonely and must i say it is a miserable place to be in yet i find myself in it.
You are enough. You will be alright, maybe not today or tomorrow but in time. You still have a life ahead, a future to took forward to so yes this is not it.
This place you are at right now is not the final destination of your life and thats one of the reasons that keep you going.
I am always open for an intriguing conversation if you need someone to talk out of your current social circle.
Moments pass away but not the memories, those moments taught me a lot.
That if you claim to love someone then also have the courage to forget her if you had to.
I was such a fool, thought I wil turn our world into heaven, and then fill your life with happiness.
A person who thinks he’ll be happy tomorrow can never really be happy.
After all,all we have is those moments.
I ask you,will there be a dawn in my life??
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Its truly sad, that we live in a time where people use other people. The most beautiful of souls and the kind hearted are the ones that suffer the most at the hands of others.
Remember these verses.
“For indeed, with hardship will be ease”
(Quran 94:5)
“Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear”
(Quran 2:286)
Its the worst kind of loneliness. The kind where even when you are surrounded by people, friends or family you still feel lonely and must i say it is a miserable place to be in yet i find myself in it.
You are enough. You will be alright, maybe not today or tomorrow but in time. You still have a life ahead, a future to took forward to so yes this is not it.
This place you are at right now is not the final destination of your life and thats one of the reasons that keep you going.
I am always open for an intriguing conversation if you need someone to talk out of your current social circle.
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Moments pass away but not the memories, those moments taught me a lot.
That if you claim to love someone then also have the courage to forget her if you had to.
I was such a fool, thought I wil turn our world into heaven, and then fill your life with happiness.
A person who thinks he’ll be happy tomorrow can never really be happy.
After all,all we have is those moments.
I ask you,will there be a dawn in my life??
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