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23.2.21

“I’m doing okay, I miss you too. I just realized that if we get used to doing what we do, me being with other people and you being happy in your life, what’s the point of us? We are past being a fling and you’re never going to get out of your marriage or make any proper space in your life for me, so what’s the point at all. I have nothing against you, I just don’t want to keep going over this for the hundredth time. I need someone who’s going to be available to me, who’ll actually be there for me and add value to my life. And what you can offer me is just not enough at this point. I hope I’m not overreacting. I’m back and mom’s shit and everything keeps falling apart and nothing is working out and I’m miserable in so many ways and I just want to be happy but I don’t want to keep finding happiness in temporary highs and temporary arms.”

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      • blackkhearttt's avatar blackkhearttt says:

        I so want to talk you, I try to talk to you but i don’t know what to say. I am afraid you don’t want me to say anything and so I don’t. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out and tell you how I feel and how much i miss you. And how much i love you despite how much you hate me. And especially how much i want and need you but those words may forever stay in my heart locked inside. Sometimes i wonder if there are words locked inside you too. But I’ll never know, my piece of heaven ☺️

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  1. Ibrahim Ahmed's avatar Ibrahim Ahmed says:

    In life we do not get to choose who our parents and siblings are, but we do get to choose who we let into our lives.

    Don’t ever choose to trust a married mans words whether he be your ex or not. If a man can’t stay loyal in a marriage for whatsoever rational reasons, they can’t stay loyal in any marriage for long, becauae they will find some other reason to do the same and they somehow believe that they have the right to do so and justify their actions in the most unbelievable ways. it’s in their nature.

    As much as you wish happiness for yourself, woth it for others too. Under any circumstances don’t be the person that takes away someone else’s happiness for your own gain, because that shit will circle back, it always does.

    You know what you are worth, you know what you deserve. I think you deserve it all and more.

    PS: i have a huge admiration towards you.

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  2. Unknown's avatar BLACKANDWHITEHEARTTT says:

    Have been a fan of your pieces for a long while, they’re so well written with so much heart, even when some of them are painful to read. Love how original they are. But then almost on all pieces there is a comment from this blackheart dipshit who literally just copy pastes quotes from google. Comical.

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  3. BLACKANDWHITEHEARTTT's avatar BLACKANDWHITEHEARTTT says:

    Have been a fan of your pieces a long while, they are so well written with so much heart, even if some of them are painful to read. What I love about them is the originality. And then there is a comment from this blackhearttt dipshit on almost all the pieces with a copy pasted quote from google. Comical to say the least. Love your work though.

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  4. Unknown's avatar Anon says:

    Hello
    I have been following your blog for sometime now. I hope you dont take this in the wrong way. If i were in the wife’s shoes, i would want to know if my husband being unfaithful. Im assuming you would want to as well. I feel like women should uplift and support each other. And maybe they are not meant to or if they are they would resolve this issue. Keeping someone in the dark and hiding your relationship with the guy must be frustrating and suffocating and i believe that this is because of the wife in this scenario. If you let it of your chest, apologise or just to clear your conscious you would feel free and happy. Resisting oneself this self destructive. I believe that even if you decide and confess to the wife, doing so in a supportive and empathetic way wouldnt make you the ‘bad guy’ per say.
    Women get enough shit with life itself. There are many obstacles we face and many two-faced men. Therefore i feel like women should support each other and be each others rock because we have to have each others back. Letting her decide what to do with the information and clearing you chest you might be able yo move on and be happy.
    This is my unsolicited advice. Hope this advice is worth your while and you think about this.

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    • MRYM's avatar mmayramm says:

      I appreciate your advice, thank you. Falling for him was never in the cards, an affair wasn’t either. We both fucked up.
      It’s been over for a long time now.

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