You know what fucks you up about splitting with someone? Their eerie absence creeping up on you, in slow agony. It doesn’t quite hit you until a few days later.
And in my head, all I can think about is everyone who’s left. All the goodbyes said. Everyone who couldn’t stay, everyone who didn’t bother to stay.
I feel like I’ve never mattered enough. Not to anyone. Not my parents. Not my lovers. Not even to myself. I was never going to be good enough for anyone. I couldn’t even be good enough to myself, no matter how hard I tried.
I’ve felt the kind of pain no one should. And I don’t want to be here anymore.
That’s exactly how my thought pattern had been for the last few days.
Mostly, the utter silence surrounding the whole ideology is deafening. It influences every decision made throughout the day and paradoxical to every step taken towards better things.
But the bittersweet part about life is, eventually everyone leaves, everyone evolves through experiences and people move onto better things – based on their perspective of ‘life’.
It’s just that we each create our own versions of reality based on different narratives and we, ourselves are constantly evolving without even realizing it consciously, thus disappointing and departing from various people/relationships along the journey.
Thanks for posting your genuine thoughts and Goodluck! 🙂
People come and go, when they leave and if they ever had made an impact on your soul you will know. They would have left scattered pieces of there soul on you to clean up. It includes things like little phrases, spontaneous words that come up, maybe a behavioral thing. But one thing for certain. You don’t have to move on or let it go. Going through with ut also a way of healing. Finding yourself along the way.
She Was Sea 
That’s exactly how my thought pattern had been for the last few days.
Mostly, the utter silence surrounding the whole ideology is deafening. It influences every decision made throughout the day and paradoxical to every step taken towards better things.
But the bittersweet part about life is, eventually everyone leaves, everyone evolves through experiences and people move onto better things – based on their perspective of ‘life’.
It’s just that we each create our own versions of reality based on different narratives and we, ourselves are constantly evolving without even realizing it consciously, thus disappointing and departing from various people/relationships along the journey.
Thanks for posting your genuine thoughts and Goodluck! 🙂
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“
Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.
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Khalil Gibran —
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Hahahha shut uppp
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People come and go, when they leave and if they ever had made an impact on your soul you will know. They would have left scattered pieces of there soul on you to clean up. It includes things like little phrases, spontaneous words that come up, maybe a behavioral thing. But one thing for certain. You don’t have to move on or let it go. Going through with ut also a way of healing. Finding yourself along the way.
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Thank you, that’s helpful.
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