For once, can I just be in love?

Without all the oh, don’t get attached to him, don’t trust him easily, don’t this and don’t that.

Can I just follow my heart?

So what if this breaks me again?

Would it be the first time? No, life is always going to disappoint you, one way or the other.

The girl you want, she doesn’t exist anymore. 

When you left, she buried herself in your absence.
The girl that you see today carries no compassion for your love.  
You crushed her beneath the boulders of your proclaimed love. 

The girl you want doesn’t exist anymore. 

How much can you forgive, and how much can you forget?

Because I think I’ve given so many chances to people and there doesn’t seem to be room anymore:

And it’s a fact that only your loved ones can hurt you. If you didn’t love them, they could never hurt you. Without your admiration towards them, their actions have zero value to you. 

When you start prioritizing yourself and you’re mental health, you distance from the ones who never understood you. 

If they come back, remember they once chose to stay in your past, and that’s where they best belong. 

They don’t get to explore life without you and say okay maybe you were better, you deserve so much more than indecision. 

If they weren’t brave enough to love you then, they aren’t brave enough now. 

Connections are instant, love is forever. And not just when it’s convenient. 

I say flowers are tainted. That I don’t want them. I’d gotten so many of them before now, they just remind me of dead relationships. 

Sometimes the time you spend alone helps you reflect and understand the parts of you lost in the process of being consumed by another.

My depression isn’t for anyone to understand. I can only tell people how I feel, that’s all I can do, the rest is what you assume.

29: I’ve become very aware of the fact that life is slipping through.

How long do I have to sit here before it completely destroys me.