[From the Diaries]
I’m sorry. This is a very difficult place to be in. When a relationship is already damaged and slowly dying, trying to repair it while carrying all the wounds it has already caused both of us is incredibly hard.
I wanted to believe you wouldn’t do anything that would hurt me again. But it turns out that’s not true. And it happened so soon. Maybe it wasn’t intentional, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less.
You say you understand me. You say you want to be my safe space. But right now, those feel like words without much truth behind them. And when someone is trying to move past a hundred painful things, even one small incident can bring all of those hundred things rushing back.
I understand that you’re not well right now. And honestly, I’m not either. We’re both in difficult places, and I don’t know if either of us has the patience or emotional space to hold the other properly.
Sometimes two broken people care about each other deeply, but still can’t make it work. Two broken people can’t always love each other in the way they both need.
She Was Sea 