[From the Diaries]
After my last run about two weeks ago, I really thought I was getting back into my running and fitness groove. But since then, two weeks have passed. I’ve planned in my head so many times to go to the gym or go for a run. And then when the moment actually comes, I just can’t do it.
It’s not physical. It’s more like I’m mentally drained, almost frozen.
A lot of people say that challenging yourself helps you get out of whatever stuck place you’re in. And maybe that’s true for some people. But honestly, when I’m in a crash, going for a run or working out doesn’t magically fix it. I’ll finish the workout and come back home and continue crashing. Sometimes your mind just has to take its natural toll before it settles again.
But today I was tired of waiting for that.
So I challenged myself. Not because I thought it would suddenly fix everything, but because I wanted to prove to myself that I could still show up, even while feeling like this.
So here I am, on this run.
She Was Sea 