What I want most is to feel sane again. Lately, I feel like I’m unraveling. My emotions run wild, and I can’t seem to regulate them the way I used to. Anxiety creeps in often, disrupting my sleep, keeping me tangled in loops of overthinking.
And I know it isn’t just in my head. Living with PCOS alongside these mental health struggles makes it all the more difficult to manage. Growing older has also changed the way I handle myself. I notice I give up more easily, I feel hopeless sooner, and I tire faster.
Anger, too, is something I desperately want to control. It sits there, ready to rise, even when I don’t want it to.
I know I am carrying wounds that keep me bound in ways I don’t fully understand.
She Was Sea 