She Was Sea

You loved me so much, why did I have to throw it away?

I don’t like comparisons, but no one has ever loved me the way you did.

I had a vivid dream where I found a box washed up on a shore filled with your pictures. Which encouraged me to find you, and I do, and it wasn’t easy but I do and I tell you how sorry I am.

But then it gets complicated the way it always does. There was someone else I had to come clean to, tell him that you have my heart and this is what I must do. So I do, and pray you welcome me with open arms and love.

And then I wake up. And you’ve never been further.

All those years with you now seem like the dream, it hardly feels real anymore. You’re so far gone; we can’t be the same people who loved and hated each other so much. We’ve alienated each other to the point we doubt we ever existed.