What’s happy about today? Nothing. It has a deeper bitterness to it. Pain. I feel pain. It’s not the same as grieving the loss of something that has actually died, but you can only see the ghost of what once was and no longer is when you look at it.

I think he’s tired. Too tired for me. Too tired to try I understand. But it doesn’t make it hurt less. 

Sometimes you just have to accept things for what they are. You can wish certain things never happened and hope otherwise, but there’s no changing what’s set in stone. 

I’m trying to navigate through something I’ve been through before, and I’m hoping I do it better and with more grace this time.