I haven’t slept. I don’t know what’s wrong, but something is. Falling asleep shouldn’t be this hard, should it? I’m more awake than I was the whole of yesterday or even last night. It feels like 10 pm for my biological clock. I stayed in bed since 1 am, and finally, around 4 am I got out and cleaned my room, and bathroom, and even sorted out half my closet, hoping that if I did that, sleep would come easily. I showered. I washed my hair for the first time in days, hoping that would make the headache go away.

For the past two years, I’ve had these episodes on and off. But I always thought once I had a better routine in my life, it would fix itself. But it seems like it hasn’t. I’m a seasonal insomniac, I guess.

I’ll go back to bed; today is another working day, and I can’t miss it. I dread the morning sun because I know my eyes can’t handle it after the night they’ve had. I hate how bright the days are.