I’m back here tonight. Not because I’m tired, but because I’m too exhausted to get up. I’m shattered inside. The flip of what I saw has left me completely broken because it seemed like no bones were put together anymore. My heart is in pieces. While I stood there, inches away from their sin watching him screw her, the ground slipped underneath me. I just wanted to vanish. They were so lost in each other that they didn’t even notice the door was open.
Why do I do this to myself? Why do I punish myself like this?
I couldn’t wait to come home when I was too weary to get up since I was physically exhausted and the music was already too loud. But I had to wait for him to finish with his friends. Just when I thought he’d forgotten about me, there he was, leaning in close and whispering, “Babe, let’s go home.”
She Was Sea 