I love Sex and the City and I adore Carrie Bradshaw. For years I’d idolized her problematic relationships with men. But perhaps this might have been the most damaging thing I’ve done to myself in my twenties.
Her insecurities and how nuts it drove her about what other people thought of her and yet always continued to do as she pleased. How she sabotaged every relationship she’d ever been in since Big. How Aiden was perfect and she tried she really did but Big was always this one big exception and he was always so selfish he would just come and go as he pleased not caring about what it was doing to her.
He was confusing her when she never really got over him. She was really independent but when it came to anything that mattered she always needed someone to lean on. God, starting to unlove Carrie is breaking my heart but I can see how I’ve sabotaged myself by being so obsessed with her mentality.
She Was Sea 