She Was Sea

If there’s anything I’ve learned from my past relationships is that obsessing over a person who’s no longer in your life won’t make them come back to you. There’s no amount of energy you can put into a dead affair that’ll change its course. But it’s one of my toxic traits. I’ve done this way too often, I’ve clenched onto their memories long after they’ve gone and relived them by going over the relationship repeatedly. It’s self-sabotage and not recommended. Maybe a part of me was too afraid to let go because what I’d felt with them seemed incredible at one point. But that’s the thing. Just because it was wonderful at one point doesn’t mean it is now. And the version of them you keep alive in your mind isn’t what they are anymore.