I don’t know. I’m trying to heal. Live with all my bad decisions, or rather let go. What’s most painful is losing control of yourself in the process of losing someone. What we must remember is relationships don’t always end because you stop loving them. And this is why the love you have for them demands control over them even after the relationship has ended. And this is the most foolish thing you can do, expecting control over them.
They might have been your entire world, but from the moment things end, that changes. What they do next is none of your business. Anticipating their next move, and being anxious about it could drive you insane. That is why it is important to understand, we can’t control everyone, not even the ones whom we love and love us.
The only thing you have control over is you, and that is enough – because you are in control of how you feel about everything. Change of perspective can take you miles away from pain. It can help you empathize and understand, it can help you accept and heal.
It’s insanely difficult to accept how someone could be your entire world one day – and the moment things end it feels like it meant nothing. You lose contact, you lose the support system that held you. The further you drift from this reality the harder you question the authenticity of it all? Did they really care? Because as humans we tend to forget, even in breakups we seek reassurances. This comes from a lack of trust and reasonable doubt. But wouldn’t we feel so much lighter, if we just let go? Easier said than done, I know. But let’s start now. Before ghosts of your ex-lovers start feeling like old friends, let’s start letting go.
She Was Sea 