Watching her as she gets off the floor, wipe her tears, smiles and gathers the courage to forgive the man who broke her into a million pieces after she had to assemble them off the floor.

Now you have no words because you can see she doesn’t have the strength to go on without him anymore. He had her webbed too deep in his manipulative mind where you have no reach. But you, you’ll be a good friend who puts on a great show because at the end of the day it’s her choices that will make her happy. 

She knows. She knows good and well. But she’s tired. She’s scared that if she lets go, she’d spend the rest of her nights sobbing into her pillow like she has every time before. Sometimes, even the strongest girls can breakdown and fall apart. This hits them harder because of everything they’ve been suppressing inside and you know this, and this is why you can’t ask her to love herself more. She doesn’t love herself and it shows in the many ways she lets him back into her life after all the times he’s shot her down. His excuses always so poor and she doesn’t even care. Her father loved her so poorly, this was the love she always knew she deserved. She’d have been a fool had she asked for more. 

But you see that don’t you? You see that she deserves the world. You tell her too, but she doesn’t listen. She never believed in herself, she never could. 

She loves him like she loves her highs. Like a pretty distraction, she could dive into. As long as it lasts, there are no withdrawals.