She Was Sea

To the woman who took my sleep away and broke my heart.

I won’t lie, I hate you. I hate your existence, I hate that you live in the same world that I do.

I hate that he still talks to you, I hate that he still lies to me about talking to you. 

I hate that he asked you to wait, I hate that he laughs with you.

I hate everything I don’t know about you two, and from the little I know, it kills me daily too.

I hate that you had to be there from the beginning till the very end, even when I wasn’t perfect, he saw perfection in you. 

I hate you live a life I envy, I hate that I put myself through this torture.

I hate that I can’t stop hating you, it must be maybe because I love him too. Maybe not as much, maybe not as dearly, but enough to keep me awake at night as the clock ticks away till another day.