I have no words for what today has been like. Today was like any other day except for a few minutes I lost my self. I disconnected entirely. People were talking to me and I heard them but I couldn’t quite grasp their words which lead to irrelevant answers. I was just dazed for a few minutes which was followed by another hour and a half of anxiety and trying to calm myself down. Male’ makes me anxious. And on top of it, I, someone who defines my self worth completely on other people’s behavior towards me, being treated like I was nothing added another bulk of stress. Toxic environments are what ruins even the healing ones.
She Was Sea 