Life never stops testing your limits. Even when you thought you’ve done all there is to fuck up the best things you ever had. Universe keeps testing me, it keeps testing if I’ve learned my lessons. Have I? Or am I unwilling to live the easy life. I am tempted to test the limits of life once more. Let’s see if this kills me.

Okay, so my blue heart is broken.

Here’s a line I once heard from a movie, and it’s been in my head quite a lot lately. “Nahin doondogi, tho nahin milegi!” meaning, “If you do not look for it, you will not find it”. Interesting isn’t it, it does make sense in it’s absurd way too. But is it true, if you really don’t look for it would you not find it? Doesn’t that clash with the famous saying, stop looking for love and love will find you.
I’m not looking, yet just like that. There it was. A blue heart.

My heart and soul; I named them yours. A surreal sense of belonging embraced me when you held my hand and looked right through me. For the first time in a long time, I was exactly where I wanted to be. Sitting right across from you while you uttered the words any girl would die to hear. There I sat not knowing what to expect, not knowing what I wanted. Yet, without even knowing, when your lips formed the words I didn’t even know if I wanted to hear, I knew. I just knew. I knew in my heart from the way it skipped a beat, from the way it fluttered growing it’s wings, wings I didn’t even know it had?, on to explore the depth of the world, in that moment I knew, this, is what I want for the rest of my life. Forever is too long to promise, forever is an eternity you can’t measure. Yet to promise forever is saying, whatever there maybe, for as long as I breath, my heart and soul will be yours. Wherever life may take us, that’s one thing I can’t change and detach, I signed your name on my life. And that way it will forever remain. For this heart will never explore love, the way it did with you.