March 16, 2016

I know you’re mad. You have every right to be. If I were you I’d never speak to me again. I’d just run as far as I could and never return no matter what feelings I may have. Cuz no body deserves to be treated like the way I treat you at times. However inconsiderate however pissed that’s no excuse. And I’m sorry so very deeply. But that’s the thing. It’s like the person who hits you once will cry and shower you with flowers when they are guilty and yet do it again. And the cycle will repeat. When they buy you flowers you think they are good again and would never hurt you. That’s not true. They would. Cuz they have their own issues and you just happen to be the easiest person to bash on since you willingly stand in the way of the person and their life hoping you could make things easier for the other. But you’re wrong. They don’t want you or even need you. At times they’d miss you and that’s the most. And there’ll be times they are so loving but that won’t last cuz whatever’s eating them up will always be there and will strike eventually and you’ll always be the victim. And I don’t want to treat you like that. I’m so sorry for the things that I say and the words that I do not mean.