She Was Sea

How do you know when you’re over someone? How do you know when your heart no longer hurts over them? You keep yourself busy until you forget what you’re actually dealing with yourself here. And then you hear that name you’ve been dreading for weeks and you flinch.  

When will I be able to hear his name and not flinch? It’s not the flinching that’s worse, it’s not knowing when. It’s not knowing for how long this would go on. See, we’ve made a full circle here. Strangers to friends to lovers and then to friends and enemies and back to strangers. When it’s all said and done, we are at where we started. Like nothing, we never existed.
So I ran far away from all of this not having to deal with it daily. But then there comes these moments where I stumble upon an old picture or a dried flower and here I am.
So what am I really doing if I am not moving forward? Staying put because what’s ahead terrifies me more than what I’ve left behind?!.