2014

How much is this worth? How much is any of this worth? Why am I so unhappy, the smallest things used to make me oh so happy. But now, they just make me sad so much that I hate everything. I hate life. I hate this crappy world, I hate the shit I’ve to put up with. I hate that I’m not there for the the one I love so much. I’m just not enough. Nothing’s more depressing than feeling so little and helpless in a world so big where everyone’s doing their thing and everyone seems to be dealing with it just fine. While I’m just lost and frustrated. I can’t take this anymore. I just really can’t. It already feels like I’ve lived and struggled for a hundred years and death is just taking too long. Why can’t it be now. Why can’t it be tomorrow. Why can’t it be soon. And this is disturbing when I think of the people who’d miss me when I’m gone. But it already feels like I’m dying a little everyday. How can I live when I feel like this.