Not sure why I feel this way. ” How can I give anymore, when I love you a little less than before ”

Not exactly true, I do love you. Probably as much as I always have but I can’t help feeling that you’ve really let me down. Sure I’ve forgiven of all you’ve done. Agreed to let bygones be bygones. But it kinda feels like I’ve given and given so much that nothing you ever give back will make up. I do love you honestly with all my heart but can I just be irritating for a while and please please do bare with me. I lived with your hate for months. Live with my annoying self for a while. Things will sort out but for now all I wanna be is something I’ve never been for a while. Forgive me darling, I love you.