February 14, 2015

This is the end of me. This is where I give up. This is where I lose all my hope. This is where I’m done hoping for better. This is the point of no return. Just when you thought it couldn’t possibly get worse it does. I’m not even living anymore, just existing. Breathing because I don’t know just when it would be my last breath and gosh if I knew how to get there any sooner what I wouldn’t do to. What I wouldn’t do for this to be my last breath. Let it be heaven or hell. I just can’t live anymore. There’s absolutely nothing to live for. Not myself, not anyone else. I had hopes. I had dreams. And now I can only dream of dying and getting rid of this world. I do not belong here. I don’t fit in. I’ll never fit in. I’ll never be understood or accepted. This is absolutely not where I want to breakdown in tears. Not here, not anywhere else. I just can’t. I cannot ever. Just please, I beg you please. Let me die in peace.