April 22, 2016
For once if I could not remember what day it is or what you were to me on this day several months back or even two years, that would be great. It’s not that I do not try, I meet other people I get to know them hoping to explore something I might love about them but, I see nothing, absolutely nothing. They only annoy me, even more when they start to find me interesting. You were the person who said you’d never need anybody again but I would, implementing I’d not be single for long ‘cause I’m the kind who always needs someone by her side and I would eventually find someone. No I’m not actually, even though it was nice having you around I’ve always been fine by myself, guys were there just to I don’t now fill up the air or something. And they make me miserable. Except you. I’ve never needed anyone the way I needed you. It’s true. And that makes you think I’m needy, sure some have come along and spoiled me like fuck but that’s past and gone. And I’m more myself now. And I’m happier the way I am, if only I could get over you. Today would’ve been another one of our monthly Annivs. Precisely two years since you gave me the heart-shaped dog pillow. Which you made fun of a year later haha.
If I could stop stalking you or find someone who’s a solid distraction things might turn around.
Just if I could, stop loving you. I would.
If I could stop stalking you or find someone who’s a solid distraction things might turn around.
Just if I could, stop loving you. I would.
She Was Sea 