February 07, 2015

I’ve been good. Not that you’ll ever care. But today  was one of those lonely in my mind days. I’ve learned to be strong by now, it’s not that it doesn’t hurt but because my feelings and emotions were ruled out as invalid by the people I counted on the most. My best friends chose you. Even after you broke my heart, it was hard enough being dumped and then having no friends at all to be gloomy with. Cutting them off wasn’t an option, I loved them. But they loved you more. I couldn’t imagine being nice to a guy who let alone hangout or remain friends with someone who shattered one of my best friends world. But they did, they love you and enjoyed your presence more. You break her heart I’ll break your legs wasn’t a thing anymore. So I was alone in my misery. I work away the whole week and come and meet my best friends who adore you. And it breaks me and when it does they don’t care to hold me. That’s when I questioned if I even had friends at all. Cuz it certainly didn’t feel like it when I was crying my eyes out in the next room all alone over their cruel comments. But thanks to them, I’ve learnt to hide my invalid feelings around the bunch who don’t care. Sadly they are my best friends for life. Love them, to bits.