February 11, 2015

 

Heard from someone after years, I can’t even remember how long it has been. Definitely 3 years or more. He was a huge part of my life when I was a teenager. We had great ventures together although we spent too little time. We’d talk for hours and hours whenever we spoke and I don’t know what we were. Friends or lovers or, it didn’t matter. I felt loved and cared and what not. He was amazing. I first met him through my school friend, he was her cousin brother’s classmate, much older than we were. And one night while my mum was away we decided to have a little dj. And he came too, and damn we danced. Ahaha it was the sexiest dance ever. This was in 2006 and i was 13. And then years later he texted me, in 2008 when he and his girlfriend broke up.

And I still hadn’t forgotten that dance we shared, nor had he. And even though I had a boyfriend at the time that didn’t stop me from seeing him. And thus began the most adventurous days of our lives. Sneaking around was so much fun with him, I wasn’t even scared. I loved the thrill. And then after about a month or two, he had to leave and I left abroad for my studies too. This was late 2008. And we stayed in touch through out. He was there when I needed him. And we made plans to see each other again in early 2012. And we did. And it was the best date ever. The most great, and then I did hear from him once or twice. But then he was gone. Completely gone. Without a trace. I did wonder what happened but I got over it. I was used to him not being mine. But he was a great person and I wouldn’t mind if I’d fallen for him. Luckily I didn’t, would have been such a massive heart-break. And about a year or two later I heard he was back in Maldives and married too. I’ve seen him around with his wife and I always look away, ashamed. Not knowing what went wrong.

But these messages made my day, what he had to say made my day. This was wonderful. And it probably is ‘Au Revoir’.