She Was Sea

Will I ever get over this? The constant crying and abrupt reminders of his absence. Does that ever stop? Specially when all your best friends have accepted him as one of us. Now they’re his friends too. Sadly none of them understand what this is doing to me. It’s killing me, every single day. No one realizes how they are torturing me by keeping in touch with him. Apparently they’d all be okay if the roles were reversed and tables were turned. So it really is my fault for feeling too much or not handling my feelings. I blame him for the torture and I blame them for not understanding. I’ve never felt more alone. They were the ones that always lead me through the darkness, but now they’ve become the darkness and I no longer see any light at the end of this tunnel.
He ruined me by loving me and then leaving me. He’s the most stubborn person I’ve known and he gave up on me. Said he couldn’t do this anymore. I was too much.  I may have been but i swear I’m madly in love with  and if that makes me a pain I’m so sorry. He says he’s happier than he’s ever been, without me. As if I’m not hurt enough already he tells me how much better everything is, without me in his life. How do I cope with this? Just how?